JT is 6 months old! Part of our journey and lessons learned.

Today JT is 6 months old! I can't believe it. The last 6 months are a blur!! I realized that the last 6 months went to: 2 months in the NICU, 1 month of me recovering from surgery, 1 month being snowed in with my family (that was awesome), and 2 months on crutches. no wonder it was all a blur. Today I got to hobble up the stairs with my little angel in my arms. It sounds silly but it was so wonderful! It was such a blessing to carry his tired little body upstairs and put him to bed. I don't think I realized when I had the surgery how hard it was going to be. Not just physically but emotionally. I pride myself on having a very high pain tolerance but this was a whole new pain. I also pride myself on being independent and strong emotionally. This was a whole new ball of wax. to be a mom and to feel like you are unable to care for your children is one of the worst feelings ever! To have to ask for help with everything is so extremely humbling. I think God made me have this surgery to humble me. I guess I wasn't humbled enough when JT was in the hospital. I guess I needed some more breaking.
I find it amazing how God knows just what we need. He knew that I needed surgery and to be laid up for 2 months in order to be humbled and lean on others fully. God also knew that I would need my family more than I have in a very long time. I am not talking about my incredible husband! No, Jake is always there for me. He is so strong and so loving. I am amazed by his strength and endurance. I am talking about my mom and my brothers and my sister in law. They have been there for me at every turn. They have taken time off of work to come over here and not just help me with the boys but take care of me as well. Our church has also blown me away with their generosity and care for us. One of the reasons Jake and I decided to join Mclean Presbyterian is because of the care we have received the past 6 months. Through all of this God has shown me more of who I want to be. I am thankful for the lessons God teaches me. I wish I could learn them in a less painful way, but my strong stubborn character tends to get in the way. Maybe in the next year I will be able to learn the lessons God has for me more quickly and more willingly :-)